I have been happily married to a non-mormon for 20 years. And there are questions and lessons that dual-faith couples face that zero-faith or single-faith households do not. Would you rather give up the prospect of being married in the temple, the assurance of children being raised in the church, and parts of Mormon culture for your boyfriend, or a great man for your beliefs. You are not a worthy RM priesthood holder. I love my husband so much, but 40 years of loneliness has been more than difficult. There may be underlying personality similarities, but if the answer to "what shall I do next" is always trumped by a Morman frame of reference for one partner, but not the other, conflict is inevitable. Sometimes I think I'II get crazy or dipressed. You should ask Him what you should do, as no one else can see the end from the beginning and no one else has perfect love for you and for your potential husband. I do think this girl is a keeper, and I'm more than willing to tolerate, be patient and live with the crazy schedule.
I think more than anything, the thing that gets me is this feeling of being marginalized in his life. Without going into too much personal detail, I received a very real, strong prompting that I should marry this girl. I didn't hear from him all day, is that normal. Oh this is a great set of questions. You need to repent and change. There's no way a TBM is dating you if she knows about your Lucifer kick.
He did call frequently, so I don't think its a good sign that your doctor guy isn't calling. My husband is a medical oncologist who deals primarily with ovarian cancer. I knew a guy who joined the Mormon church because he thought it would help him date a certain Mormon girl, a girl who refused to date non-Mormons. Females are not expected to serve and MOST of the girls that do, only do so because they do not have a suitable read: If your GF is an attractive girl and still ended up on a mission then she is about as fanatical as they come and if she isn't already she will be slowly trying to convert you. I am also certain that there are callings and opportunities that I would have had, were I married to a faithful LDS woman, that I have missed.
I even had three kids in with me during a impromptu vaginal examination when I was preggo with my fourth. Sometimes I think I'II get crazy or dipressed. If you are not old enough to consider marriage, you should be careful about having a serious, exclusive relationship. I am no longer the vivacious young girl……life has not been easy. I feel like this pressure of finding a residency has already taken a toll in our relationship and somewhat "controlled" us for so long that I am already so tired of it. All I can think about is the fact that his schedule means that I will have to be the one to shoulder all the parenting and household responsibilities. I am just short of living in a shelter because he has all of his pay going into a separate account for just him now and he has given access tot he account to his mistress.